"Moooooom! Can Amy eat over tonight?"
"Mom? Can I go to Dylan's?"
"Mom, I can't find my...."
"Mom. I want to go outside and play...Can I? So I don't bother you while you're on the phone?" This one is my favorite because it is loudly whispered while I'm ON the phone.
My life is full of right now's. My kids need: answers, reassurance, guidance, permission,a chauffer, referee or scolding all on the basis of "Right Now" . There are times when I want to scream. I'm so busy running for everyone else, I don't have much time for me. I'd like a few right now's. {childish, I know can you see my pouty face?? ; ) }
My bunnies are away for a week. They are yucking it up and having a ball. The weather is supposed to be grand and the time will fly. We're all excited.
I'm cleaning and am really happy that it stays that way for more than twenty minutes. I haven't seen one peanut butter smudgie or a single potato chip smear on any surface for days. There aren't wrappers of any sorts left on any piece of furniture I own. I've done the laundry and in less than twenty-four hours, there are NOT six more piles that have rubbed up against them OR that they are simply too lazy to put away hence needing a spin in the ole Kenmore. I went to the grocery and still have most of what I bought. I could eat for a WEEK on this stuff. (and it's good stuff too! I might get to eat some most or ALLLLLL of it). It's going to take me two days to fill the dishwasher with enough to run it. Two whole days! Wow. I'm going to get up. Me. All by myself and get me ready. Just me. No little me's. I will iron only my shirts/skirts/pants. Just mine.
Cheech and I can go to dinner and the movies when ever we want; there are no practices, meetings or "get togethers" to coordinate. We sit in the bistro at night, eating dinner late and talking uninterrupted for more than ten minutes at a time. I don't hear :
Mom?
Mommy.
MOOOOOOM!
Quit it. Don't be jealous.
Because the house is quiet. Very quiet. I talk to the dogs a lot and seek them out, making them come and sit with me. I hear myself sigh a lot more. I'm calling my friends to catch up but I'm listening to their kids in the background...missing mine.
I don't know how to plan things if it isn't around my kids. I have furniture coming (we are surprising them by redecorating their rooms with the stuff they wanted) and I was trying to get the work schedule to fit the delivery schedule so I could be home in time for the ki...ohhhh wait. ANYTIME will fit. It's okay. I can go in early. I can come back and stay late. I have no time constraints. Feels funny.
I slept in this morning. I potsed around all day because I didn't have much to do or catch up on. They called to tell me how much fun they were having; all the cool stuff on the agenda but they had to hurry...
"Yeah, bye Mom. Love ya."
Yep, I'm footloose and fancy free.
Not one single MOOOOOM today.
I wish they were home...right now.
